2/1/2010

Day 261 - So its Febuary. How much time left do i have?

overwhelmed by mundanity, as usual. Well i was definitely refering to work. Even though it enables me to meet and serve people from all walks of life and learn more about people, there are actually cons.
Oh well.

Some customers are weird.

Speaking of which, I don't want to see myself saying
" Hi , can i help you? "
" Hi, just to let you know there is a promotion.... .. "
" Hi, do you need me to help you check other outlets for availibility of your item? "

I just don't see how i'll excel in retail management. ( ONLY If my appeal is successful. )

Condsidering private institutions, M.I , or perhaps a JC. lol.

Oh well.

Nothing is right now.

Perhaps i should be grateful that i still wake up everyday.

Life is unpredictable,live everyday like its your last day - How cliche,but can you ever deny the meaning?

Oh yes, this is how i feelllllllllllllllllllll right now :(

Does it have to be this way?

30/1/2009

It is currently 11.23 in the morning, I am waiting for my parents to buy back breakfast :)

And BREAKFAST ranges from a wide variety of " genres " . haha.

English breakfast , Continental breakfast , Hungarian breakfast and so on.

But as singaporeans, we do have our own term for our local breakfast. Simply Kopi,Egg and toast bread. Sure taste good. Well as a matter of fact, practically anything and everything sold @ the coffeeshop can be eaten as breakfast,lunch and dinner.

Oh well, It's 11.33 and they're still not back yet. :(

I'mmmmmmmmmmmmm hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyy :(
I'll kill them if they buy back something disgusting.
I love having a wonderful breakfast.
It sure acts like an excellent day starter!

but i hate work.



Say...... Don't i look kaiwaii nehzzxzx in formal wear???????? hehe.

( i didn't mean say literally. lol )

I think i do though.

Cheers mate!

21/1/2009

Excellent movies that are coming your way!

I am ' SO ' going to watch them.

:)

with mee beeeeeeeeeeee

15/1/2010

Day 260 - Looking back

Speechless. I won't say im oblivious to what exactly is going on. Yet neglience is too strong a word to be used in situations like this.

Time,neglience - A thin line between the definitions of the two words mentioned.
Then again,when they are used together,they can be weapons of massive destruction in an arguement. Oh yes especially between couples.

Got my results, wasn't very happy with it though.........
And yes i do want to get into communications and media management @ tp badly
However, I'm 2 points away from the cut off. To make matters worse, its pretty competitive and popular among the students in singapore. The only way i can get in to CMM @ TP is.. luck? well i'd say the chances are slim,but i'm not going to let it slip!
Yes i applied for JPSAE. Apparently DAE didn't work, Oh well............................................... Gotta do whatever i can to get my hands on cmm.
Yes i'm willing to kiss the lecturer.
Kidding. No i really love mass communication
I really love being heard on the radio
I really love talking
I really love writing
I really enjoy expressing language as a form of communication, flowery or not,doesn't matter.


Anyway i'm really in dilemma right now, I don't know if i'm making the right decision. I have to be honest with myself, i do feel restricted at times, but i chose this path, i chose it myself. Regretting right now would be a little silly and redundant, It won't really alleviate the grief. ANYWAY, I don't know how i should lead my life right now. Nothing seems right ( oh yes another emotional post oh yes oh yes )

What, or how exactly do you define a relationship like this?
Let me see, is it simply neglience of your social circle,extreme sensitivity practised towards the opposite party,and a dictionary and firmware programmed into your mentality to prevent you saying the wrong thing at the wrong time to prevent any cases of bitter conflicts. and ninety percent committment to the opposite party?
I don't know.
I am only seventeen.


Talk about life.
Talk about the ' RESET BUTTON ' in life.






I've been told that once you step into the next phase of life(which is entering the polytechnic )
you'll be given a chance to hit that little red reset button in life
Perhaps you'll be exposed to a new social circle
You'll be introduced to new * genre * of people and their character
Whatever that happened in the past will be bygones and woda, start afresh.

Sometimes, we can't really wait for that ' next phase of life ' to come and we really really itch badly to just press that reset button. As a matter of fact, i believe we have our own dirty little secrets, horrible intentions nursed that led to despicable actions. In general, we regret most of our actions and doing(s) most of the time and we really wish and hope to rewind way back and correct our silly mistakes. Then you'll say " Wouldn't everything be perfect if i were given a chance to go back in the past to rectify whatever issues that actually paved my life presently? "

I really YEARN and YEARN AND IM DYING to hit that little red reset button
Don't you want another chance,another first good impression to be dawned on everybody?

Well its not like we all have a chance to find that little red button
So why dwell in the past and bring yourself down?
We're all victims of painful memories and bitter regrets


Anyway while browing through the web, i thought i could share something really inspiring and meaningful.

19) How do I change?
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.
-- Og Mandino, "The Greatest Salesman in the World"

Taking the first step is the hardest,but you'll never know how far it will bring you. So change.




OKAY LONG POST BUT ANYWAY, SOME HILARIOUS PICTURES TO SHARE AH AH AH HA!

WELL, JUST THOUGHT I'D MISS WRITING NONSENSE ON MY ANSWER SCRIPTS IN SCHOOL!

NOTE: THIS ARE NOT MY ANSWER SCRIPTS, JUST GOT THEM FROM SOME GOOGLE. :) ------------

horribly upset

somebody cheeeeeeeer me up :(

3/1/2009

Day 259 - New year, New resolutions.



2009 was over in the blink of an eye. Felt as though i was still in the midst of a common test,preparing my wits out just to ace the papers. ( as usual,it never happens )


Anyway final eye check up tomorrow,pretty nervous. Guess all the ulcers are already gone, really feel much better right now.
AND I CAN'T WAIT TO WEAR CONTACT LENS AGAIN. I KNOW I KNOW, ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. WHATEVER I DON'T CARE. WEARING THOSE THICK BLACK GLASSES MAKE ME LOOK HORRIBLE :(

I don't feel good when i work
Well guess its because i have my glasses on all the time
Oh !

Anyway there was this cool hippy hoppy customer. Even up till now, my impression of him is still fresh and alive,kicking and ficking!
its because.. he was... wearing... THOSE COOL SHARINGAN CONTACT LENSES OMGGGGGGGGG
ULTRA COOL I WANT A PAIR OF IT TOO!!!

cool right omg. hahahah i kinda like it no i love it yes i want it omg

And my previous company owes me a month worth of wage.
It really gets on my nerve cause my parents are not really providing me allowance
Apparently the reason is because i've started working and they want me to know how hard is it to earn money blah blah.
FRUSTRATING
to make matters worse,now that pathetic company owes me money.
they are mean. I don't like them.

Oh well,Money calls the shot nowadays.
Its all about money. I'm not suprised if money can cause conflict between best(s) friends and all
Sometimes i hate money



We should all start farming
and stop studying yay!!! lead a simple life. Feed pigs and cows everyday. Plant some vegetable and wheat. We'll all be fine. + no global warming. Omg i can change the world!!!

29/12/2009

Day 258 - Give me Novocaine

" sorry We're closed. " she looked at me as she took her purse and keys to lock the main doors of the clinic. She looked as though she was rushing for lunch.

"But its really urgent, is it okay if.. i.. "

"you shoulld have came before eleven,unfortunately, you'll have to wait to two o'clock when our doctor comes back." Her voice was exceptionally loud and stern as she interrupted what i had to say. She wanted to make her stand. I had no other choice.

I leaned towards the glass doors so as to exit the clinic. Bad day.

So i went to withdraw money and had lunch at my favourite hawker centre. Fried sotong, Egg and potato. As usual i ordered coke. Eyes was still quite painful but bearable fortunately.

I waited till two at the cyber cafe,went to facebook and youtube for $2.40 an hour. No choice, there were no other forms of entertainiment around that area.
So it was finally two and i went to the clinic,didn't wait for long. 15 minutes and it was my turn. First to see the doctor i suppose.

" Hi jingcheng, what is the problem? " He filed his documents and placed them at the corner of his desk as he read the name on the medical card,of which i signed just now to enjoy medical benfits.

"Sore eyes." I said, so as to get it over and done with. All i needed was an MC to answer for my absence at work

He took his equipment,something that actually looked a like a sophisticated form of torchlight.
He placed his fingers above and below my eyes, extending my eyelids so as to get a clear vision of whatever sore eyes i was down with.

" One...two...three..four...five. Okay this is bad, i'd have to refer you to A&E immediately. You have 5 ulcers around your cornea. "

"What?! Whats wrong??! " I was shocked. I was really really shocked. I was taken aback,completely! The first thing that came to my mind was... do i have to undergo a surgery?!

So i asked inorder to rid my insecurity. " will i go blind? will i have to undergo any surgery?! "

He replied in a nonchalant manner " I didn't say you won't have to undergo any surgery,and its too early to tell if you're going blind,or not. For now, i will need you to go down to Singapore General Hospital or changi hospital under a A&E Case. "


I walked out of the clinic and called my mom.
I rushed down to Singapore national eye centre and ignored whatever Changi hospital cause i heard they are not really professional and have to wait for ultra long just for a walk-in case. Not to mention A&E.

My mom arranged me to see a specialist.
Above all else...

She told my mom that she'll need to do eye scraping to determine what is growing inside my eye.
So ... i was like... wow that sounds painful. lol

I asked if it'd hurt she said no not really cause you'd be under anesthetic.

So she dripped a few drops into my eye. After 15 minutes,i saw Syringe(s), with NEEDLES. She started to scrape the tip of my eye.

does it sound painful?

Yes i'm down with 7 days mc.
Mom couldn' t help but nag and scold and nag and scold x99
because the fees were 400+.

lol.
Sometimes my mom is very nice.
Sometimes, i suspect my grandfather was some computer maniac and installed some menopause software into my mom, resulting in her incessant demands everyday.

Thank God im 17 and im moving out,very soon.

I am going back to SNEC tomorrow for 2nd check up,this time, its an hour worth of eye scraping. Everybody keep me in prayers!!!